The dark night

Full moon

When I was studying yoga a bit deeper some five years ago, my teacher at times spoke about The dark night of the soul. It was an expression used for the days and nights when the inner work, seeking and whatever comes up gets so dark you think it will never light up again. When everything feels meaningless, depressing, hard and without any hope.
The dark night of the soul. It sounds rather beautiful in some way.

This is how Eckhart Tolle explains it:

It is a term used to describe what one could call a collapse of a perceived meaning in life…an eruption into your life of a deep sense of meaninglessness.  The inner state in some cases is very close to what is conventionally called depression.

Eckhart Tolle

Anyways, the past week or so it has felt like the winter in southern Sweden has gone through the Dark night of the soul. It has been so dark for so many hours and I have had a hard time coping with it. Yesterday I wanted to go to bed by 5 pm just to be able to wake up again when it was daylight the next day. The nights have felt extremely long.

Star light

I have spoken to people who have been complaining over lack of energy, having doubts about this and that in life and that old trash has surfaced again in their mind. All of this reminded me about another thing we spoke about a lot in those intense yoga classes and courses I took: the natural rythm of life.
In our modern world we tend to forget that we as humans have a natural cycle that we follow whether we like it or not. For us living in countries where we have seasons, our bodies and minds usually follow the seasons.

In spring we often fall in love, want to grow and create and feel how life and energy comes back.

In summer we often like to nourish our bodies, relationships and minds. (as the farmers wanter and nourish the plants). 

In fall we start to harvest the things we have been working on earlier in the year, we stack up on food and often like to gather with friends.

In winter we like to slow down, rest more and our thoughts become more introspective.

Simply put: We become more thoughtful and tend to look more inwards and like to reflect on life and who we are during winter. It’s part of our natural cycle and something we can embrace rather than run away from.

The world of 2016 provides a lot of things and activities to escape from all kind of introspection and deeper thinking. It is up to us to dare and allow ourselves to slow down and look inward for a moment or two.

Who knows what is on the other side of that Dark night?

// Wivan

Clearing out and looking inside

Beautiful light in the morning

A few days ago I watched the last episode of a television show called Naked (Naken in Swedish), where four people do a month-long experiment where all of their belongings are taken away from them and they get to take only one thing/piece of clothing back per day during the 30 day experiment.

It has been interesting to watch, especially what happens to these people when mobile phones and other distractions are taken away from them. And how they get creative in new ways when there is something they want but don’t have money.

The sky…

It has also been interesting to see, hear and follow one of the participants who felt depressed when the experiment came to an end and she was about to get all of her belongings back. She had found out things about herself and her life and simply didn’t want to go back to her old life.

And two months after the experiment was over, she still lived accordingly to some of those insights – no social media and less time with distractions and more time living in the moment. She hadn’t been taking a selfie or been in a picture in two months! (before the experiment she was constantly online and chatting, posting pictures etc).

View from my morning walk

This woman inspired me to delete the Instagram app that I’ve been addicted to lately – as an experiment during my two weeks off from work, just to see what it feels like. I’ve been off Facebook for a year and a half and haven’t missed it at all, and now I am ready to try and live a bit more away from other people’s updates for a while and simply spend more time with myself and the people and things I meet irl.

Winter in Sweden

Afternoon in Åhus, Sweden

The past two years we’ve spent the winter abroad, we’ve been in France, Egypt, Turkey, Indonesia, Singapore, Thailand and Sri Lanka.

This year we’ve decided to stay in Sweden for several reasons. It’s a choice we’re happy with, though our thoughts often touch the warm beaches we’ve been to and our bodies long for sunshine and fresh fruit.

Dressed for a day at the beach in Sweden in December

Who knows what the future brings, maybe we’ll staying in a sunny and warm place again next year.

Frosty morning some weeks ago

For now, we treasure the days of sunshine and try to get outside during daylight every day. (Sweden is rather dark this time of year).

Morning at Aspö

Hope you enjoy your days wherever you are!

//Wivan and Anders